"Np At All"

By ArcAssinB

Yes,

I claim the love , the light , the fight,

I'll be at my, best, I'm settling, 

Nobody prays for me,

Nobody lays awake at night and sing all of their songs to me,

love is lost to me,

Fuck a memory, this is confusion and a shadow in a

cemetery,

Plan to make it to the stars when the work is done,

Plan to be the best version even if the weeds don't grow beneath my feet and whipser things that

sound like shit my ancestors would say,

My enemies look dumber every day , I'm ready to play,

I blossom every full moon,

Can't stand around a plain coon,

Don't ever have nobody cause bitches be leaving too soon,

So why think ima' trust you?

Evil eyes everywhere, I still evolve,

No falling leaves, still through those trees,

Lie memories, don't have to tell the truth to you.

x

"Composure"

By Abpoetry

Been through, awhole lot of shit,
I'm weak ? Bitch you wish,
I've been to , mental hospitals and the forbiddens,
I've made a , whole lot of enemies,
That made themselves,
I've seen too many , fake tough cunts
fuckin themselves,
I've seen people go back on their word about destroying me,
Too many names to count I've been called,
In distant memory,
Fake,
That word gets thrown around loosely, 
A bunch of roaches and cockroaches they swarm all around me, I'm just a butterfly and this matrix thats flying toward springs,
People wanted to use violence just to harm me because I'm five six and because I'm a little guy and because they think I'm an easy target in this universe of ours,
I'm the one that's going to chisel off these stupid mini scars, 
I only get stronger with time, I win in this part,
Out of all that I've suffered in my years this is where I win, 
And for those who oppose me will pay for all those lovely sins, 
Composure doesn't exist,
Getting stronger every month , I'm here watching your end.

"All me this time"

By Abpoetry

Might as well make a coffin for relationships 

And friends,

Man the betrayal, that'll never really ever end,

I used to tell my myself i'd look back on those times

And laugh loud as fuck and never call them again,

It's hard when your old life stares you in

the face but it's hard when you still have to

fuckin' live in it,

I'm evolving like every human should in this life,

even on they worst day if the shoe does fit,

I'm in my prime now so I can't waste this,

Everyone counting on me to fail,

And if it's not a muthafucka on the street trying to

hate, then sure enough it'll be my family as well,

Done with tall tales,

Can't be broke anymore,

This the ship that will sail,

If I had a sales pitch then imma' need a new cell.

This is all me.

I can't be nothing but me.

So let them hate on me.

Man I take all this lightly.

"Sensitive Ones" / "As You Need Me"

By Abpoetry

Which one of you melanated goddesses
have the audacity to fully love?
Kill the trauma that'll cloud ya judgment,
That's the only way to look above,
Look beyond,
Just a female sat in your shell , tasty prawn,
to love a man and give him all your trust must
weigh a ton, lead on,
turn off yourself when boys will say they're different,
It's a scary game,
They mix fantasy and horror like a death exchange,
Think black love is a myth, they could finish plain,
Make you look crazy when lacking money to feel
some pain,
Like why can't I just find a black woman with some
good hair with a good heart that could weather
like storm,
Someone that love me for me on this planet full of scoundrels,
And for the sensitive ones , I lost all of my morals.

/

Almost like the universe didn't want me to love as soon as I got my powers,
I feel like Norrin Radd,
I feel like ever since I was 12 I was obsessed with the 
female anatomy,
Depending on consistency, someone that can love me more than my mama could ever do in this timeline,
Don't know what to expect , I grow weary as time flies,
As long as all of these beautiful women are on standby, 
They'll never choose me,
But somehow my soul mate is still waiting,
Both in self development,
Both going through something,
Both needing love in directions when there was
nothing,
Second opinion me?,

Swear I need files to concoct all the memories.

*BUT AS LONG AS YOU NEED ME*,
*I'LL BE RIGHT HERE*,
*WITH AS MUCH I COULD CARRY*,
*TO YOU I'LL BE NEAR*,
*BUT AS LONG AS YOU NEED ME*,
*I'LL BE RIGHT HERE*,
*WITH
 AS MUCH I COULD CARRY*,
*TO YOU I'LL BE NEAR*.

"Text Sessions #6"

By Abpoetry

Damn , here we go again,
Damn , here we go again,
A goddamn whack job posing as a woman that
wants love,
A joke in Jax , Jacksonville women are the worst,
Keep on attracting these bitches guess you could
say it's a curse,
Another mental case mixed with too many traumas
asking questions bout' the wrong things,
Probably why you think having kids is a bad thing,
You a cheap imitation of what a perfect being should
be , a whole dumb bitch,
Suffer all these curses from me,
I don't even like a black woman with glasses ,
That perfect vocab lets me know theres no blackness,
Probably all white friends,
Probably superiority complex, 
Think you better than your own race , I'm placing all bets,
You a red flag as a whole , might be scarlet,
Mind already 90 years old , trauma on baphomet.